So, kids, let’s bring it down for a moment, and then you can be back on your merry way.
I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism when I found out I was pregnant with B. I’ll admit, one of the first things I thought was, “Eh. Thyroid. Doesn’t sound like a big deal.”
Once I started the medication, I felt AMAZING.
Really–I had no idea I was feeling so BAD until I felt AWESOME.
And then there were some issues with the prescription not getting called in on time, me going five days without meds, plummeting into the depths of thyroid-despair, and then never really feeling as good as I did for that brief month or so.
It’s like chasing a high.
Then I lost a ton of weight (while pregnant!) not eating carbs due to our oldest son’s diet, and a year later (A YEAR!) we found out I was on WAY TOO MUCH THYROID MEDICATION–like “enough for an 800-lb. person” the endocrinologist said.
OH, so THAT’S why I was having heart palpitations all the time, was sweating all the time, couldn’t stop talking like a rabid squirrel, and could eat and drink ANYTHING I wanted and would still lose weight.
Personally, I kind of ENJOYED everything but the sweating and heart palpitations, you dig?
So, they started decreasing the dose, and I waited for the thyroid-despair to kick in.
What’s that? Oh, you want to know what thyroid-despair is? Well, grab some popcorn, kids.
When your thyroid is not working as it should, you just feel…awful. As in, “I can’t even get out of bed or unroll myself from the fetal position, nor can I stop crying. And my bones hurt. A LOT. My joints are inflamed and hurt. A LOT. There seems to be a big dark thundercloud hanging over my head all the time, and I can’t pull myself together to get ANYTHING done. Really–it’s like having a wrecking ball hanging around your neck, and you’re just trying to put one foot in front of the other.
When people don’t have thyroid disorders or understand the complexity of what’s going on, they might say, “Drink more water,” or “Get more sleep,” or “Find time to exercise,” or “Just do your jobs and move on to the next job,” or “I’m sure you’ll be fine,” or “Just change your dosage.”
While all of those sound AWESOME and would definitely benefit a person, it’s way more difficult than just some simple suggestions.
This little butterfly-shaped gland in your neck controls so many things within your body, and if it’s not functioning properly, then YOU are not functioning properly.
It’s like you’re this new person living in the shell of your old self.
So, I’ve now become some sort of freakish hermit crab. Great.
But this new you on the inside–who doesn’t have patience with her children anymore or doesn’t have the energy to do anything anymore or just wants to be by herself (what?! THIS IS UNHEARD OF–SERIOUSLY!) and shut out the world–well, it’s a little depressing since that’s not who you used to be.
That’s not who you are.
But yet it is now.
So, at some point, you might crawl out of the deep dark hole you have found yourself falling into, and you decide to fight.
Because you’re mad.
You’re mad that thyroid disorders are NOT given more attention in the medical world. You’re mad that your lab results keep showing numbers that don’t reflect how you are ACTUALLY feeling. And you’re mad that you look fine on the outside, but inside you are experiencing so many emotions and symptoms that the world cannot see.
“But you don’t LOOK sick.”
Oh, don’t I know it.
So, you decide to fight.
And you start doing what you know works, no matter what the research says or the endocrinologist says.
For me, cutting out grain carbs has helped me in the past, and it’s helping now.
This past month or two has been NOT so fun in the Thyroid Department.
Three days ago I decided to go back to cutting out grain carbs from the diet, and I have had three days in a row without the joint inflammation, without the feeling of despair–it has been awesome.
And I’m so grateful to have three days in a row of feeling good.
Because if you have thyroid issues, you know that three days in a row can feel like an eternity.
So, to have three days in a row of feeling GREAT, well, I’m just so grateful.
And I’m so grateful to have a supportive and understanding husband along the way as well.
And, while there are MANY days I have not thanked God for it, if His Will is that I have a thyroid condition, well, I best be grateful for it.
Because He is never wrong.
If He allowed it, it must be part of the plan.
So, if you know someone who has a thyroid condition–or maybe you have been diagnosed–don’t give up on them. Don’t give up on yourself.
There are going to be days where you think you are crazy. (“I JUST wrote that down on a piece of paper so I wouldn’t forget…but where is the paper?!”)
There are going to be days where you think you’re the only one.
But you’re not.
So, if you could please keep me, a person named “J”, and a person named “K” in your prayers–all who are dealing with thyroid conditions–I would be so grateful. Some of us are doing better than others, but we’re all in this together.
St. Blaise has been a go-to saint simply because he deals with the throat, and the thyroid is in the throat area.
Doctors says the thyroid gland is shaped like a butterfly.
I think it’s rather appropriate, don’t you?
The butterfly is a symbol of new life. A beautiful new life.
The time in the cocoon is dark.
But once the butterfly emerges, she has a whole new life before her.